MORNING STAR EPISODE
By Leaf
It all began in the Haight Ashbury. I was standing on the corner next
to the One World Family Restaurant watching this brother paint a dove on
the Spiritiual Reformation sign, the one with all the rays comming out
of it.
When he finished he jumped down and suggested that I go to Morning Star
Ranch for a while to get away from the city, and he gave me directions
how to get there.
The next day I packed up my army dufflebag. I packed some clothes
my army sleeping bag, my green poncho that was waterproof, and some
books. The Bible, the I ching , and I think a green book about Rama
Maharishi which I was reading. Also tarot cards, my hair brush, some string
and a candle.
I hich-hiked up toward Sebastopol. The person I got a ride with knew
right where Morningstar was so he took me all the way to the parking
lot. Which was pretty bare-bones. So I walked past that and came to some
buildings. It took me a while to figure out where to stay.
Anyhow I settled into the lower house and about 5:00 in the morning the
Police came thru checking everyone's ID looking for run-aways I must of
checked out because they went away.
We had to go to the upper house, which at this time had no porch, to
eat
and bathe. I remember bathing in that bath room with no door and
everybody
there looking at you while you bathed. I remember we use to sit around
and eat out front or sitting on a long couch. And all these dishes
would pile up over a long period of time and no one would do them. I
remember I started to do them once but Doris and this dark curly haired girl
would not let me do them, they did them all, an all day job. The girls
also did the cooking.
I was into a real peaceful meditation, vegie type life-style and did
not seem to need anybody in any way, I was real independent. I used to go
off into the woods to be alone and meditate, and just be by myself. I
remember this tree with two trunks, one with Peace painted and the other
with Love painted on it. I always remembered that tree thru all my
journeys.
One day I decided I needed a new name so I put on my green poncho
went out in the rain and was sitting there meditating looking up at
this tree, when I decided in a flash that my name was Leaf. I thought alot
about respect for life and how I was essentially life so if I must have
a name why not Leaf?
I believe at this time,John Butler was still alive.
I remember a black man named John who was walking with a white dog
and I had a black dog walking beside me. I was going out away from the
camp and he was coming in and I said "hi John" and I remember flashing
on black and white relations. I know this had to be before he was
stabed to death in Haight Ashbury.
The next time I hitched-hiked up to Morningstar someone was talking
about John being stabed in the city, so I assumed it was him although I
hoped some how it was not because he seemed like a really good person.
I only remember seeing Lou once the whole time I was there. I remember
he
came down to the fence and saw me. He was far away but I remember the
glasses.I was trying to look unobtrusive, as I was staying on his land.
I am sure he thought "oh no another one!", so this must have been
post-bust.
Anyway the second time I came back too m* was from S.F. and I remember
geting a ride in a purple XKE which droped me off at the turn off too
m*. I got a ride from there to the parking lot.
This time there were alot more people, also my hearing was out so I
could not hear anything . There was Doris, and the girl with the dark
hair, and a guy with THINK written on his jacket, and the OWF guy. The
girls were doing yoga naked out in front of the upper house and everyone
was watching them.
I had been out in the orchard ( this is after we had all settled into a
routine), meditating. I was always trying to get real peaceful. I
remember I thru an I ching. It said something like it does not further one
too cross the great waters or something like that.
Anyway some rock band (Blue Cheer I think), had donated a whole barrel
of blue cheer acid and everyone was going to take some and all get
high together but I decided to stay down because of the I ching, and
because my hearing had gone out.
I was sitting in the lower house by the fireplace when all of a sudden
this alarm bell went off inside my head, so I went runnng outside and
there was this girl running across the field toward something I could
not see then she stopped and took a hold of this tree.
At first I thought it was real beautiful. She looked so wild and
everything.
Then I saw that she was looking at the guy who I still call THINK, who
had taken great handfulls of acid and was freaking out, trashing around
on the ground trying to destroy himself.
I thought I could not live with myself I let this go down. So I walked
over to where he was to try and do something, I did not know what, He
was trying to tear out his tounge and eyes and kicking the cement with
his feet and he was bleeding all over the place. Everyone was just sort
of standing there watching freaked too, not knowing what to do because
they were all stoned too.
So I start to go to Think but I can't hear anything, and the other
people there seemed to be getting real mad, saying things like "yes Jesus "
and " go on" and "boo" "hiss" like they wanted to stone me for
interfearing, even real advanced people. The whole satanic reaction. The
humiliation.
I did not kow what to do so I got down right near THINK and began to
pray
to ask God to bring THINK down. I prayed and after a while a still
small voice said to me, "Sometimes God must have a human face or hand to
act".
So I went and grabed THINK and I asked him why he was trying to destroy
himself and he said " I AM GOD YOU BASTARD" . I said no you are not.
or you would not be trying to destroy yourself.
But he was Demon Possesed and I could not hold him. About this time
three other brothers got it together enough to help and each of us got
a hold of a arm or leg and were going to carry him to the CROSS but he
was too heavy and kicking alot, so we put him down in the upper meadow.
I wanted to call the people with the white coats, and load him into an
ambulance, but someone, the OWF brother, who had experience with
trashing
and freak-outs said no we should try OOOOOOOMMMMMMing.
So we sat there all the rest of the day with THINK , Oming untill he
came down about sunset. Which was a much better outcome then the one
I had invisioned.
The next day he was allright again all sore and bruised but alive, and
I
asked him what he saw, he said he was way off in some other Galaxy and
was not even conscious of his body at all.
I remember Doris walking back to the house with a head of lettuce
going to prepare dinner and she touched me on the head dubbed me
allright.
I remember we use to stare at the lights from the town of Sebastopol
in the upper house with all the lights out, that was kind of like our
entertainment.
I remember the news media came by and interviewed Doris. She was
trying
to tell them that if she had an old man she would probable lay him
right then and there. She was twanging away on an old guitar.
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